God is so good. It’s easy to say, but I really, truly believe that HE is good and He alone is GOD. Because of my heavenly Father, I am never alone……and by the way…..neither are you!
It’s been a while since I’ve shared anything on the blog. Two weeks tomorrow to be exact, but it’s certainly not because nothing has been going on. Life with twins is extremely busy! Mason and Madison have been doing so many amazing things and the Lord of our lives has been doing so much more than I could imagine.
I started thinking about what I would write today and one of the first things that came to mine is how our little guy had gotten sick recently. My husband and I went away for a much needed weekend retreat. It was beautiful, God’s presence was everywhere! In His Presence there is fullness of JOY! Nothing could be more perfect. But, while we were away, baby Mason developed a cough, and when we arrived home, it seems his breathing was a little labored. Of course, Mason being the little man that he is, never slowed down, and never acted as if he felt ill or anything. But of course, mommy could tell and so could daddy. We gave him a breathing treatment and he was fine.
I wanted to blog about how once I got home from my blissful weekend, it was back to reality. I wanted to blog about how this sweet precious kid has a rough go at life and how it’s so unfair that he has this limb difference and he also has allergies that make his eyes and face swell up like nobody’s business and how the allergies trigger his asthma and how it sends him to the hospital almost regularly. I wanted to blog about how he’s been to the hospital and doctor so many times, that he knows how to get there, where to turn, and when to start yelling “I feel better, mommy!” because he doesn’t want to go and he’s hoping that I turn the car around. Isn't it enough that he has to face life with only one "normal" hand, but he has to deal with asthma attacks too? Yep, I wanted to blog all of that and then some!
I felt like that beautiful weekend getaway with my loving, doting husband, left me in la la land and it was (as I stated previously) back to reality. Did God's presence leave when I returned home from the retreat weekend? Because “In His Presence there is fullness of JOY” right!!???? Right!!!!! That IS my reality.
I started thinking about His goodness and praising HIM for all that HE has done. I was blessed with these babies, when the doctors told me no….it can’t and won’t happen. I was reminded about how I prayed, cried and screamed….. “Any way you want to bless me LORD, I’ll take it! I trust you! Any way, you see fit…..Any way you want to bless me LORD!” So, that’s exactly what HE did. He blessed me with these remarkable little babies, who were birthed from the same womb (my womb!), created by that same GOD (the one and only creator of all things). The same God that heard and answered my plea of “Any way you want to bless me Lord, I’ll take it!”
So….I’m taking it! I’m taking any way he wants to bless me. The business of life with twins, raising a son with allergies, asthma- with a limb difference, and everything that comes with it, I’ll take it. Raising a little girl, who has more spunk than a body that tiny can hold, I’ll take it! Walking through the house with an almost 40lb kid tugging on one leg and another one on the hip, while I’m also cooking dinner and running bath water, I’ll take it! Because God Himself trusts me enough, believing that I will totally depend on HIM and trust that HIS presence is with me.
Yep, it will get hard…..and sometimes I might feel a little heavy, but even then….. “In His Presence there is fullness of JOY!” That doesn’t mean things will always feel “cheery” and “blissful” all the time and it doesn’t mean things will ever be perfect….. But His presence is always there, and even in the heavy times, I can find JOY! (SO CAN YOU!)
Thank you Lord for those “blissful” moments and also for the “chaotic” times……for in both, your presence is felt! - AMEN!